Ohkie, im supposed to type a long description here about myself. So it goes like this, im a design student, currently on my 3rd year in Nanyang academy of fine arts.
My school sucks big time in case you wonder, so don't follow my path, unless you really LOVE art alot! Im quiet, but crappy and really noisy at times, i can be crazy
if you want me to, but make sure you can stand me! i love sun tanning! and imma chocolate addict! & finally, i wish to earn 13k a month, own a yellow Voltswagen beetle converter in 8 to 10 years time! WHOO!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
i always hate to start a new post with negative stuffs.
i wanted to blog about happy stuff but yet
the bad things always leave me a deeper impression.
Christmas is coming,
lots of friend's birthday around the corner too.
but that's not the point.
i used to say what i think and do what i like.
few months back i realise things changes,
like i changed.
some unhappy stuff happen and someone said this to me,
'Friends are always here to listen to your complains.
Just don't keep everything to yourself & just feel free to
complain about every small lil things to us.'
im sorry.
and i suddenly realise, i am.
i have been holding on to my worries and troubles myself.
i don know why.
maybe because i thought mine was really nothing compare to those out thr.
the only one that i feel so bloody comfortable to whined and nagged about
everything else in the world would be boon hou.
he used to be always thr to let me complain & torture to!
i miss him SO MUCH,
but he's not around to let me pester him further anymore.
bcos things have changed.
well, thr's been nt much of troubles recently.
nt much of worries.
maybe im just worried about you.
yes you.
but i don know what to say,
i don want you to feel that you're wrong.
you're just being silly.
i want you to feel comfortable about telling me cos im willing to listen.
i want you to stay healthy,
i want you to stay strong.
maybe im not good with words face to face.
i don want you to be 'trapped' in the past.
its really time to move on my dear,
even though thats the thing you dread to hear.
Friends around feel hurt seeing you like this,
i felt sad too.
i want to see you happy.
some sacrifice are not worth made.
you're not alone,
you know that.
i tried not to touch sensitive topic so that you wouldnt
think more about it.
maybe its always on your mind.
i don wanna make you guys worry about my problem is
because mine is totally nothing compared to what
you girls have been going through.
i am not in a relationship nor in love;
i thought about him but seldom nowadays.
i could nv ask for more in life because im glad with what i have now.
so you see, i am fortunate enough alrdy.
maybe yrs back i would have been asking for more.
but i've see through it.
im a big girl now. ;)
FRIENDS are as important as FAMILY.
you girls are all important to me.
im sorry if my attitude have been a bitch.
sorry too if im keeping mum about things.
in days you'll see a btr me;
and i hope to see you in it too.
an antidote to a sad & bitter day?
chocolates, ice cream and movies! & ELMO!
they made me happy and its that simple.
3:06 AM
