Ohkie, im supposed to type a long description here about myself. So it goes like this, im a design student, currently on my 3rd year in Nanyang academy of fine arts.
My school sucks big time in case you wonder, so don't follow my path, unless you really LOVE art alot! Im quiet, but crappy and really noisy at times, i can be crazy
if you want me to, but make sure you can stand me! i love sun tanning! and imma chocolate addict! & finally, i wish to earn 13k a month, own a yellow Voltswagen beetle converter in 8 to 10 years time! WHOO!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
just sent my lil brother off to china,
damn.
im kinda worry for him, china's been so messed up lately.
and recently the milk incident. and all sorts of funny ass stuff.
plus the fact that he's going to the last huge earthquake location to rebuilt the roads and tracks.
14 day that's it.
gonna feeeel more empty like usual without him around.
you know what?
recently, i've been feeling useless.
or maybe not that recently, like now?
don know?
i felt that i have not done enough;
i have not done enough for my families,
have not done enough for my friends,
not done enough for my designs,
not enough for myself.
like maybe one day if i happen to just disappear from this world
no know will ever realise, and no one will bother.
like my presence and disappearance will not be in remembrance.
like i have not done enough to make them leave a deeper impression of me.
i am not good enough.
like do you even know that i am always here willingly by your side listening to your troubles, pain and joy,
and does it ever occur to you that i wish to be the important one you would always dial for,
and that i actually don mind all those nags you always think they're a fuss.
but still, that doesnt make me important.
today we discuss about our birthday wishlist and party.
and many asked about how i wanna celebrate mine,
i nearly forgot im near to 21, actually i tried to forget.
kinda hate growing up.
and guess what?
i guess im not gonna celebrate?
like its so hard to organised a birthday party.
feel like shit now.
i am so freaking busy this whole weeek.
morning to night.
omfg im emo-ing.
2:34 AM
