Ohkie, im supposed to type a long description here about myself. So it goes like this, im a design student, currently on my 3rd year in Nanyang academy of fine arts.
My school sucks big time in case you wonder, so don't follow my path, unless you really LOVE art alot! Im quiet, but crappy and really noisy at times, i can be crazy
if you want me to, but make sure you can stand me! i love sun tanning! and imma chocolate addict! & finally, i wish to earn 13k a month, own a yellow Voltswagen beetle converter in 8 to 10 years time! WHOO!
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
I don't wanna blog it out but
Stop it; just stop it.
Why can't we just moved on with our life.
I know you're hurting,
im not feeling good about it too.
I just wanna lead my own life,
y cant i?
Why can't i just live my own life and be myself.
Why up till now i've still got no way to lead my own life.
why cant i just be alone.
WHY?!
why is it that even when you're over there i still cant get a peace
of mind.
Why keep pushing me,
this is not much of what i can take.
I feel so fk up thinking of the amount of pain i've caused for each other,
But that's life.
Cant clinged on anymore.
THIS IS LIFE.
and this is my life.
I just wanna be myself,
but yet i cant tell you now.
I fear of your safely right now every moment.
I'm not cold-hearted, even if we're not together i still care,
I DO.
What i can do or say to make you understand,
the past, the present and the future.
It change.
Not because of an issue but many, lots of it.
You didnt cherish them in the past,
until now that you've asked for a chance,
can't i have the right to decide for it.
I've given you plenty of chance in the past,
you just didnt tried to treasure,
you thought i would go back to you no matter what.
But do you understand,
i've grow up and see through things.
Im no longer that girl you see in the past,
relying you on every single thing.
Even though i love that feeling but its not the same anymore.
I dont cry for you anymore, i dont do stuff i dislike for you anymore.
I do them all for myself.
I said gave me time.
Why cant you just give me time instead of pushing me
every two days in a row.
My life's been a mess now and its so FK UP!
I cant concentrate on my work, i cant think of being happy.
I tried to stay happy everyday.
But when the nights comes and everyone's asleep,
but i cant.
Please.
i'm as tired as you are.
Just move on and let me go.
Loving each other had been so difficult.
i'm sorry you love me;
i'm sorry i loved you
i'm sorry i cant help anymore.
i'm sorry i cant get things back the way they are
i'm sorry i hurt you
i'm sorry i hurt myself too.
I'm sorry things arent gonna change anymore.....
Maybe one day i might regret deeply for this choice i've made.
But right now i cant feel a thing anymore.
Its numb.
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-LK- Gwgaga, Flying off sent 10/9/2007 3:21 AM: baby, im not trying to run or hide or make u look ugly by going to bangkok
-LK- Gwgaga, Flying off sent 10/9/2007 3:22 AM: hope u understand that, i know our relationship is gone and is something i perhaps may never be able to get back again no matter how hard i try
-LK- Gwgaga, Flying off sent 10/9/2007 5:09 AM: i just thank you for all the wonderful moments we had. Please remember what I always say, dun be stressed by sch, dun be afraid of what people think of you. as long as you tried your best, dun regret. if you regret, it just means that you never tried hard enough.
-LK- Gwgaga, Flying off sent 10/9/2007 3:28 AM:P.s. : i still love the way u make my heart tingle when i see ur smile. I have not told you this before. But this is why I'm always so happy when you are.
thanks for everything.
*crys
10:22 PM
